Eulogy for a son

By Elizabeth Gini

From the moment I knew you were to be born, I was overjoyed, which was only made more joyful when six months later I found you were to be a twin.

My heart was filled with anticipation and love, but in the back of my being there was also fear.

I was fearful of losing you, but I pushed those feelings deep down and found delight in carrying you… I’m grateful for all my memories and every moment we shared. You confided your hope and dreams in me and I encouraged you along the way.

I will miss sending and receiving funny cat videos, your hugs, our talks. But most of all, I’ll miss your little hands holding mine. They were forever printed in my heart.

My physical time with you is over now. So, son, you put those hands that I held for 20 years, one on your baby sister and one in God’s hand and guide her along this journey until I can hold you both again.

And tell God, ‘Thank you’ for me. And tell him how grateful, lucky and privileged I feel that he chose me to be your mom and I hope I made him proud. And I will help guide those who you left behind until we are called up to be with you.

I hold you with my whole entire heart.

Mom.